Showing posts with label short story. Show all posts
Showing posts with label short story. Show all posts

Thursday, November 11, 2021

The Man Who Wouldn't Die Special Posting For Veterans Day by BJ Neblett

 The Man Who Wouldn't Die A Special Posting For Veterans Day by BJ Neblett

Wishing all a happy and healthful Veterans Day. Here is one of my most popular short stories. Let's all learn from it.

Peace,

BJ

The Man Who Wouldn’t Die

BJ Neblett

© 2009, 2015, 2021   

 

The subject known as X was a healthy extremely fit and tone young man of about nineteen or twenty years of age. X first came to see me a week ago. He was agitated and under extreme duress. Refusing a mild sedative, he demanded he be given a complete check-up, including some procedures not normally associated with a routine physical examination. When he returned to my office yesterday, I had the results of those tests.

            And X had a most unusual tale to tell.

 

            “It is good to see you again. Please, sit down.”

            “Thank you, Doctor.”

            “How are you feeling? You seem much more relaxed today.”

            His gaze passed through me. It was the one striking feature on an otherwise ordinary appearing individual: his eyes, black and dull. Even as I think about them now I am filled with an unexplained dread. Hollow and empty, his eyes were those of a corpse.

            “Yes, Doctor… better, calmer… for now. The tests… do you have the results of the tests?”

            “I do. But as I suspected and told you, they show nothing out of the ordinary. There is nothing physically wrong with you.”

            He looked up at me sheepishly, as if afraid to ask. “Tell me, Doctor, please.”

            “Very well… all of your vitals are fine. Heart rate, pulse, blood pressure, and respiration… all fine. Blood work came back negative as did toxins and other samples. The only thing which stands out is that your vitals and counts are slightly elevated; stronger than normal. This is certainly no cause for alarm.”

            His voice turned anxious. “Go on…”

            “Your reflexes and motor skills scored better than average; eyesight is remarkable. And I have never seen muscle tissue or bone as dense as yours.”

            “And the rest…?” With the question, X once again became somewhat agitated. I was struck with the feeling he knew the results before I gave them.

            “Well… brain activity and function did test elevated, but normal. You can rest assured you are strong; healthy. Why I wouldn’t be surprised if you lived to be one hundred and twenty!”

            With that X began to fidget nervously. My words, which certainly should have assuaged any fears, seemed rather to trouble him. He looked at me intently, those dark eyes studying, piercing. Finally, X reached into his pocket, withdrew a photograph, and presented it to me. It was the picture of a man with graying hair and other signs of impending middle age.

            “How old would you say he is?” X asked.

            “Oh, perhaps forty or so, I guess.” It was then I realized the figure in the picture possessed the same chilling, dark, dead eyes. “Is this your father?”

            X tensed in his seat. His mouth pursed, and then slightly curled in what I can only describe as a failed attempt to smile. “No… no, Doctor. That is not my father. The man in the picture is me.”

            While his words were delusional, X’s posture remained alert, attentive. “You do realize the person in this picture while bearing a striking resemblance to you, is easily twice your age.”

            This time the smile broke through the stoic demeanor. It was a half crooked; I’ve got a secret sort of smile which sent chills throughout my body. Combined with those hollow, dead eyes it was a look I shall never forget.

            “But it is me, Doctor,” he began calmly, with an icy detachment of fact. “This is what I look like when I… if I…”

            He paused.

            We sat for an indeterminable, uncomfortable time studying each other. Finally, X seemed to make up his mind. “It’s the curse you know… the curse...”

            “Perhaps you should tell me about this curse.”

            He arose slowly, his hands finding the bottom of his trouser pockets, and wandered over to the window.

            And so began X’s strange tale.

 

            “War,” he said at last, “war is the curse, Doctor. War… killing… from the moment Cain killed his brother man has been marked. Marked with the blood of Abel, and cursed, cursed with the thirst to make war; to kill his fellow man. It is as normal as breathing. There will always be wars, Doctor. And there will always be young men to fight them.”

            Those empty, hollow eyes glazed over, turning inward… seeing… remembering.

            “I was a sergeant in the cavalry,” he continued. “We’d been engaging the enemy all day long, pointless hit and run skirmishes that slaughter men and gain nothing. Ironically, it was the day of my birthday. By late afternoon everyone was exhausted, the fighting scattered over a quarter-mile of rough ground. A cannon shell landed nearby knocking me unconscious. When I came to it was dark and I was alone, the battle had moved on.

            “Slowly, cautiously I began to make my way through the unfamiliar terrain. After a time, I became aware of something in the woods. It seemed to be following me, marking my progress, moving as I did.

            “I turned.

            “Suddenly, there was a flash of blue steel in the moonlight. Leveling my pistol, I fired twice. A figure staggered from the brush and collapsed.

            “I approached my victim. To my horror, he was just a boy, maybe twenty years old. And he was unarmed. Clutched in his fingers was a crucifix. It was the shiny metal cross that I had mistaken for a weapon.

            “I knelt beside the lad, struck by my detestable deed. Then, without warning, his eyes flew open wide! Clutching at my shirt, his mouth contorted into a soul-searing scream. He thrust the damnable silver cross into my hands.

            “And then…”

            Beads of perspiration dotted X’s forehead. He trembled and began to pace.

            “… then an incredible expression, one of total and unimaginable peace, settled over him, and he died quietly in my arms.

            “It was then and there that I knew I was cursed; that I would never again find peace.”

            It became obvious to me that X was suffering from some sort of severe post-traumatic stress. The cause of his stress seemed obvious. “It is not unusual,” I suggested, “for a young man as you to have lingering feelings of guilt about tragic events in their lives.”

            X turned suddenly, his face now ablaze with the most insipid grin. He laughed aloud. “Young man… young man, indeed! But you don’t understand, Doctor. I wasn’t a young man. I was thirty-five years old! And the year was sixty-three… eighteen sixty-three! I was a sergeant in the 16th Texas Cavalry with Jeb Stewart. It was the Battle of Milliken’s Bend, Louisiana, what became known as our Civil War!”

            He laughed again, the terrifying baying of a mad man. And yet, throughout his discourse, it became evident that he believed what he was saying.

            “You said it yourself, Doctor. You said you wouldn’t be surprised if I lived to be one hundred and twenty! If only that were true! If only that was where it ended…

            “But no… not at all…

            “After the war, I returned home. Things settled into a comfortable routine. The war was all but forgotten. Then, on my sixtieth birthday, it began to happen. The changes were slow, subtle, and nearly imperceptible. It was my wife who was the first to notice. But within ten years it was frighteningly obvious – I was aging but aging backward; growing younger! My grey hair gave way to its natural dark color and was growing again where it had ceased. My skin seemed to shrink, smoothing itself over my body, erasing the telltale traces of time. Old scars healed and disappeared. Even my eyes grew stronger; I put aside my glasses. And I began to feel as I did in my twenties: strong, healthy, and alive again. And young! My God, I was… I was young again… a young man of twenty!”

            This time his laugh was sardonic; bitter.

            “Providence has its price, Doctor.

            “On the day of my seventieth birthday, I awoke to find myself once again in uniform. I was a new man but with a familiar role to play in life’s capricious game. All that remained of my former life was this…”

            Reaching into his shirt, X tore a metal crucifix and chain from around his neck, flinging it to the floor.

            “…this cursed cross. Before I could comprehend what was happening, I was on horseback; charging up San Juan Hill with Teddy Roosevelt and his Rough Riders. I was twenty again, Doctor, yes. But I was twenty and brandishing revolver and rapier; fighting on foreign soil, and forced once again to slay my fellow man!

            “Returning to the states, I tried to make some sense of this maleficent manifestation. I had a new identity, a new beginning, a fresh start at life. At first, I thought myself blessed.

            “How wrong can one man be? How very, very wrong… not blessed at all but cursed…

            “About the time of what would have been my eighty-fifth year, although I carried the looks and constitution of a man just thirty-five, I began to regress again, to age backward. Only the process progressed with amazing rapidity. Changes seemed to take place overnight. In three short years, I was back to being a young man of twenty again! This time on my birthday I awoke huddled in a mud and blood-soaked trench near Verdun, France. All about me, weird, mechanized monsters spewed fire and destruction. We had created even more efficient means of dispatching our fellow man. It was the war to end all wars. Only it didn’t… and certainly not for me.”

            X returned to his seat. A tormented look of determination, which was that of a man desperately baring his soul, shadowed his grim face.

            “Life became a nightmarish roller coaster ride. I would live and age as anyone for a time. Then, one morning, there’d be one less grey hair, one less wrinkle staring back at me from the mirror. And I’d know it would be just a matter of time.

            “It was my one hundred and thirteenth year on earth. I was forty-five again but looked not a day over twenty-one. I awoke, transported in space and time once more, an Ensign aboard the U.S. Battleship California at Pearl Harbor as the Japanese attacked! Now the devastation reached to the heavens, as airships rained death from above.

            “I tried abandoning my conspicuous companion, dropping the insidious icon into the ocean; burning it; even burying the regenerating relic in a graveyard by moonlight. But to no avail…

            “… I became a twenty-two-year-old lieutenant at the Chosin Reservoir in Korea. Nightly, endless waves of human mayhem descended like locus, obliterating everything in their path. A decade and a half after that war I awoke in a rice paddy. I was a nineteen-year-old corporal caught up in the hopeless chaos of Vietnam during the Tet offensive.

            “For a time, it seemed I had finally beaten the curse. Ten years slipped by… fifteen… I was aging normally again. But it didn’t last. Soon I began to once more regress. I found myself manning the gun turret of a deadly desert tank. Incredibly, our fight was not over borders or principles, Doctor, but for oil! Then, not long after, I was back fighting in yet another desert war, defending ideals I couldn’t comprehend.

            “And I survived, doctor. Each time I survived the nightmare to awake and to kill again; the bewitched crucifix hanging about my neck like an albatross.”

            He slumped into his chair, exhausted from his startling confession. Burying his head in his hands, X began to softly weep. It was my duty to help this poor tortured being climb from the depths of his delusional mind. I touched his shoulder.

            “Well,” I encouraged, “whatever it is that is troubling you, I am sure we can get to the bottom of it.”

            “No!” X screamed, knocking aside my hand. Looking up, his countenance became that of a man possessed. “No! You don’t understand!” He snatched the photograph he’d shown me, from the desk. “This picture… it is me! This is how I was not very long ago. But look at me, Doctor… you said it… you said I appear to be around twenty!

            “From cannons to tanks to airplanes to Scud missiles… where does it all end?

            “And tomorrow… tomorrow, Doctor… is my birthday, and I will be once more constrained into battle!”

            By now X was raving, near violent. With some assistance, I was able to administer a strong sedative. I placed him in the quiet ward of the hospital, taking precautions to secure him to his bed. The enigmatic crucifix, which appeared to be ancient and perhaps gothic, I locked in my safe. When I left, X was sleeping peacefully.

 

            Arriving at the hospital this morning, I discovered X was gone. We searched the grounds thoroughly but to no avail. Further investigation revealed that the crucifix, too, had mysteriously vanished. And then word came that war had broken out.

 

Monday, March 2, 2020

New Short Story Published And $1 Sale by BJ Neblett

New Short Story Published And $1 Sale by BJ Neblett

Just a couple of quick notes to keep you up to date. First, my short non-fiction piece, The Most Dangerous Pitch has been published in this month's issue of The Write Launch Magazine. This is a free on line literary magazine with lots of great stories and poetry. Click the link and scroll down to the Creative Non-Fiction section to read my account of taking a very hard line drive to my face. Ouch! Click here: The Write Launch Magazine. Enjoy!

Also, don't forget, you have only until midnight Saturday to take advantage of Smashwords' annual Read An Ebook Week Sale. There are bargains on thousands of great reads, some even free! Here you will find my own New Millennialism short story collection Wouldn't It Be Funny If... for just $1! All of the titles are available in any ebook format including PDF and Plain Text. Click the links and search BJ Neblett to see all of my available titles. But hurry. The Smashwords Read An Ebook Sale ends Saturday, March 7, at midnight. Click here: Smashwords

Peace,
BJ

Monday, May 29, 2017

Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow by BJ Neblett

Your summer fun starts at Hugo House with a trip to the past and into the future! Ever wonder about time travel? Ever wish you could go back and change something; or maybe see what tomorrow and the next day and the day after have in store? Ever be deeply engrossed in the latest sci-fi thriller only to have it ruined by an implausible, even ridiculous time travel scenario? Ever get tripped up in your writing about time travel? My next class, Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow: Writing Believable Time Travel In Sci-fi and Fantasy, is a class you won't want to miss. We will address the popular beliefs, myths and facts about time travel; look at the problems and pitfalls of traveling to another time; examine the writings of some of the best and most popular sci-fi writers in the business, plus have open discussions about our own beliefs and feelings on the subject. There will even be guest lecturers revealing how they make their own time travel tales believable and engaging.
Classes start Tuesday, July 18th, and run for six weeks, every Tuesday night, 7 til 9 PM, at Seattle's Hugo House. For more info, and to sign up click here to check out their site. But get on it... this promises to be a fun and popular class and will fill up soon. Don't be stuck in the past!

Wednesday, May 10, 2017

Stories Up For Consideration by BJ Neblett

Hello again. Just a quick note and request for your help. Two of my most popular stories, Seven Seconds and Rain At The Intersection Of Tomorrow are up for big time consideration. But I do need your help. Please take a minute to click the two links below and 'like' my stories. I'm not a big fan of this sort of thing, to me it is nothing more than a popularity contest...see how many votes a story gets before we look at it...but it is the first step, and an important one. It's quick, easy and painless. So, thanks ahead of time for your help. I'll keep you posted!
BJ

https://theprose.com/post/158567/seven-seconds

https://theprose.com/post/158564/rain-at-the-intersection-of-tomorrow

Tuesday, December 20, 2016

Quick Update by BJ Neblett

Look for a year end tally and run down of all of my stories and books and where you can find them this weekend. Right now I have a couple of quick items to share. As always, click the links!
Fellow writer and blogger Jessica Collins has posted a very nice interview she did with me on her blog site. Be sure to check it out and leave a comment. And while you are there, give a look at this wonderful writer's home page and her Facebook page. Tell her I sent you!
I mentioned here before that I will be teaching a course in short story writing, Short Stories And Shorter Stories starting in February at Seattle's Hugo House For Writers. Click here for schedule and details. We'll I am pleased to announce I have been asked to return for the Spring Semester. I'll be teaching Intro To Fiction. Check back here and at Hugo House for details as time nears.
Finally, I have said it before and I guess I will keep saying it... I am always surprised, indeed overwhelmed at how far my words sometimes travel and how they are used. I'll let the following email I received this week speak for itself. Again, check back here in the near future for more info.

Message : I am writing a memoir which will include an account of my treatment for cancer, when I was helped and moved by a nurse quoting "We are the sum total of our experiences...." from "George". I wonder if I might have your permission to reproduce that paragraph (up to "..nor  will be tomorrow") in my book. With many thanks in anticipation. Kind regards.

Wow...
Thanks and peace.
BJ 

Thursday, November 3, 2016

OryCon, Updates And Such by BJ Neblett

Wow, November already! Crazy. Then again I have been swarmed over with writing a new novel... actually my second this year: Princess Haylee book two of The Lost Princess Series. I finished book one, Planet Alt-Sete-Nine in July and want to have book two completed before committing to my publisher. Of course he is already talking about a spring/summer release date, which in publisher speak means maybe fall. We'll see. If you'd like to preview a taste of Princess Haylee, I will be posting a chapter or two perhaps in January.
NanoWriMo is here which I foolishly was talked into signing up for by my author KJ McPike. She is working on her own sequel, Emulous, a follow up to her excellent award winning and very popular Young Adult novel Xodus. If you are not familiar with NanoWriMo, it is for crazy people who challenge themselves to write 50,000 words in 30 days, the month of November... fun. Anyway, click the highlighted link words to check it out along with KJ's book site.
The weekend of November 18-20 I'll be joining my friend and author/publisher Matt Buscemi and some other writers in Portland, Oregon for OryCon, a sci-fi/fantasy convention. I'll be meeting and greeting and selling & signing copies of my books including Elysian Dreams, my contemporary fantasy adventure novel, and Matt's books including his anthology, Beyond The Hedge, The Light And The Dark. I have a well received short story included in this volume. Please do come by and say hello. It promises to be a lot of fun.
My historical memoir, Ice Cream Camelot is out in paperback through Amazon.com and on your local book seller's shelf. The eBook was very well reviewed and received and now you can add it to you book shelf!
I have created, finally, a new Facebook page. I don't think my publisher at Brighton Publishing has any hair left to pull out so I thought this was a good time to setup and update on Facebook. The link is to the right or just click the highlight. As they say, be sure to 'like' me and ask for a 'friending' if that's the right terminology. And check back often as I promise I will be updating and looking for your comments and such on a regular bases. As time permits. In between writing and teaching. Ok, when I can... I promise.
And speaking of teaching (see how writers do that? Cool, huh?) My first class teaching fiction writing at Seattle's Hugo House just concluded. On Saturday, December 3, I'll be joining a group of teachers for Write-O-Rama, one hours classes on everything from writing to publishing to poetry. I'll be teaching a class on the art of the short story and it is open to all. Then, my classes resume on February 5, Sunday (think that's the right date). This time around I'll be teaching Writing Short Stories And The Art Of Flash Fiction. Contact Hugo House for registration info which should be starting soon. Again, click the highlighted text for a link to Hugo House.
Finally, since we are nearing the end of another year, I'll be posting an updated 2016 Bibliography of all of my books, stories, poetry, etc and where you can find them. Check back for more.
Ok, enough said, and thanks for being there!
Peace,
BJ

Saturday, June 18, 2016

New Book New Story Book Signing/Appearance and Teaching by BJ Neblett

Hello again and thanks for stopping by! It looks like I'm gonna be a very busy guy this summer and beyond! Of course, I am busy finishing up Planet Alt-Sete-Nine, the first of my sci-fi/fantasy trilogy about video gaming. I am also finishing up editing KJ McPike's new book Nemesis, book 1.5 of her terrific Astralis series. We are hoping for a simultaneous release of our books later this year. Keep checking back here for more info.
In the meantime, check below for two totally new stories of mine in Beyond The Hedge, a national anthology, and Paradox Ethereal Magazine, a free online magazine. Just click the images for more info!
July Fourth weekend I will be in Portland, Oregon for Westercon 69 Sci-fi/Fantasy convention. I'll be there signing copies of my books along with fellow writers KJ McPike and Alissa Berger (who also has a story in Beyond The Hedge). Stop by and chat.
                                                

       Beyond The Hedge                                                    Paradox Ethereal Magazine

Finally, I have been honored to be asked to teach a class at Seattle's famed Hugo House. Starting September 12, I'll be teaching an eight week course titled Creative Writing: An Intro To Fiction. Details on this and other upcoming writing classes and more about Hugo House by clicking the link: www.hugohouse.org.
Thanks for supporting my blog and enjoying my books and short stories. Be sure to like, link and pass the love! Hope to see you July Fourth weekend in Portland at Westercon 69!
Peace,
BJ

Wednesday, May 18, 2016

Books, Short Stories, Magazines and More by BJ Neblett

Hello again! First I want to thank all of you for your support for my writing through the years. My books and magazines are among the most popular. And I enjoy your comments and questions. One question I get most often I will (finally) address right here. Below you will find a catalogue of my work. Simply click the photo for a link to more information and availability. And thanks again for your support! Look for a new novel and more later this year! And be sure to click on the image on the right to be the first to get a new story in a forthcoming book!
Peace,
BJ

                

                

                

             


If you should have any trouble with any of the links you go directly to either Amazon or the publisher eFiction Magazines! The anthology on the right, Beyond The Hedge is available for preorder now and will be out the first of July. It features brand new stories by myself as well as my buddy and fellow author Alissa Berger. Just click the image.
Currently I am hard at work on the first of a Sci fi trilogy which should be out this fall. Watch right here for more info and a chapter tease! Also, in the works for later this year and into 2017 are compilations of my romance stories and fiction stories. Stay tuned... more to come...

Thursday, April 28, 2016

New Book New Story by BJ Neblett

I know I have been remiss in my writing here, but that is only because I have been busy writing... as in new short stories and a new book. Actually the book is a trilogy, with book one tentatively planned for release later this year. Titled Planet Alt-Sete-Nine, the release is scheduled to coincide with the release of Nemesis, the second book in the Astralis Trilogy by my friend and fellow author KJ McPike.
You remember KJ as the author of Xodus, book one in her excellent series. She was featured in this blog on September 21, 2015, titled New Must Read From A New Author. KJ is working hard on book two, Nemesis, and Xodus has met with tremendous acceptance. As a matter of fact, on Saturday, April 30, 2016, KJ will be receiving a First Place Category Award from the very prestigious Paranormal Awards for Supernatural Fiction for Xodus. Congrats KJ! Click on the links to check out KJ McPike and Xodus on Amazon and KJ's home page.
Meanwhile, besides busy with my own trilogy, Planet Alt-Sete-Nine, I have a number of short stories under my belt already for this year. One I am particularly proud of Rain At The Intersection Of Tomorrow, is a featured story in a forthcoming anthology from Fuzzy Hedgehog Press. Beyond The Hedge will be released July 1, 2016, but you can check it out right now and pre-order from Amazon by clicking this link or the image to the right. Beyond The Hedge will feature my story along with stories from some very talented writers including my dear friend Alissa Berger. You will remember Alissa being featured along with myself in the July 2015 edition of eFiction Magazine with her story Unaccomplished.
Beyond The Hedge has already started quite a buzz as well as receiving a number of per-orders, placing it high in Amazon's rankings, so be sure to get your order in soon.
A couple of final notes. As publication of Planet Alt-Sete-Nine nears I will post a chapter here to whet your appetite. Also, KJ McPike, Alissa Berger and I will be attending Westercon in Portland, Oregon, the weekend of July 1 thru 4. We'll all be at the Fuzzy Hedgehog Press table along with writer and Fuzzy Hedgehog Press publisher Matt Buscemi. I'll write more as the date draws nearer. But mark it down on your calendars, and plan on stopping by and saying hello to some of your favorite authors.
Peace,
BJ Neblett

Saturday, November 14, 2015

Recovery, New Story and Library Talk by BJ Neblett

Well I am still here, although there were times this past week when I thought I might feel better dead. I now have a greater appreciation for my friend Kristin and what she must have gone through. Having your gallbladder out is no picnic, no matter what the doctor or anyone else may tell you. I had the ‘simple’ procedure on Monday, five days ago, and am still very sore and achy. I was off work all week and when I return I am on light duty, no heavy lifting for three weeks. And here I thought I’d be up and about, doing well in a couple of days! Anywho, the doc says everything went well and it was the wise decision to have the operation now as I had quite a few stones built up and they were partially blocking one of the tubes… whatever that means. Thanks to everyone at Swedish Hospital First Hill in Seattle for making my stay an easy one, and to my friend Alissa for being there for me. And thanks to all of you out there in blogland for the wishes and prayers.
I didn’t get as much work done while off as I had hoped, meaning basically none. I did manage to finish a new story; more on that another time. Also, as mentioned before, I will be guest speaker at December’s It’s About Time, at the Ballard (Seattle) Branch Library. I did manage to get my talk on Flash Fiction finalized. Those of you in the area please plan to stop by Thursday, December 10th, at 6 PM. It’s free and only lasts about two hours, with a Q&A period and an open mike segment.
December 1st the new edition of Paradox Ethereal Magazine hits the ether, available on line as a free download for all. It will feature a story by me as well as a powerful, touching short story by my friend and fellow author KJ McPike. Be sure to check it out and leave comments for the magazine’s wonderful and hard working publisher Mary. If you are not familiar with KJ McPike and her new young adult fantasy Xodus, just click here.
Thanks for taking time out to read my blogs and for putting up with my ranting and ramblings. As always, link, like, comment and be sure to share the love. C’ya next time.
Peace,
BJ

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

Great New Story, Great Catch And Green Graffiti

          I’ve been told I am a great catch. Trouble is I keep getting thrown back. Perhaps it is because writers are a weird breed. I’m allowed to say that as I am considered a writer. If that dubious classification carries with it anything beyond the obvious – and perhaps not so obvious distinction of being strange – I’m not certain. I am fairly certain that writers think, act and behave differently from normal people, including a strong proclivity towards the dramatic. Again, I know. Recently I found myself doodling quotes on a local park bench – no worries: the green ink was environmentally friendly and would soon be vanquished by sun and rain. Hence was born the term Green Graffiti, a sort of literate tagging: defacing public property with non-damaging words of sentiment and encouragement. Later, as I sat watching the varied and intriguing reactions of those discovering my words of wisdom, a plot began to unfold. And soon, a new short story, No Boundaries was born. I told you writers are a weird breed.
           Inspiration is a fleeting commodity; the muse an elusive mistress. Both strike when we least expect. A recent heartache resulted in numerous short stories and poetry, some of my best work – thanks Kristin. The world around us is full of inspiration as fact is indeed stranger than fiction. One just needs to learn to recognize it when it appears. I’ve been blessed with plenty of opportunities for inspiration. All things considered, whether that is good or bad is debatable. Whether I’d rather have the beautifully inspired prose, or their beautiful inspiration is a question I’ve managed to so far avoid facing. I hope the answer is an obvious one.
          Whatever the means or inspiration, you my loyal readers are the lucky beneficiaries of my inspirations, be them good or no so. No Boundaries, my latest romance short story is now available in this month’s (September, Vol. 3 No. 8) Romance Magazine. As always, this issue is available through Amazon, Barnes & Noble and the publisher Fiction Magazines. Simply click the image to the right!
         And since we are already deeply mired in shameless self-promotion, all of my publications, magazines, books and poetry can be found by clicking the BJ’s Publications link on the right, just below the image of Romance Magazine. And oh, I have another story which will be published in the new issue of Paradox Ethereal Magazine, available December 1. Enjoy.
            Thanks. I will leave you with another piece of cerebral musing:

            “Leave the door to your mind wide open. But keep the screen door shut. This way you can see everything that is going on around you, let in only that which you want, and keep everything inside from running out.”

                        BJ Neblett

Sunday, July 5, 2015

New Stories Published And Posted by BJ Neblett

I have a story published in this month's eFiction Magazine, just click the image to the right. In this edition you will notice a story by a new author, Alissa Berger. Alissa is a close friend and a very talented writer, and this is her first time being published. But I promise you will be hearing a lot more from her! Enjoy the mag. In the mean time, below is a romance story from a couple of years ago that appeared in Romance Magazine.
Also, be sure to click over to my poetry blog for a new post! The link is to the right.
Peace,
BJ

Rain
BJ Neblett
© 2013

            Joraleah’s life ebbed and flowed like the waters that surrounded her and marked her existence. It came in waves of feats and failures; troubles and triumphs; confrontation and consolation. And, like those same waters that could rage in violence or settle in serenity, Joraleah had learned to rise to the challenges and recognize the consequences.
            These traits developed in no small measure as the result of a cruel joke of genetics. Being an only child – an anomaly in the fertile Johnston clan – made Joraleah uncomfortable. Growing up she felt more a curiosity, an outsider to countless cousins and assorted aunts and uncles. The proverbial square peg in an ever expanding round hole, Joraleah was looked upon by most as an out of place piece of furniture; the strange object d’ art; the enigmatic bibelot, wrapped in a tattered apron by Great, Great Granny Gianna, and clutched tightly to her bosom as the family escaped some historically insignificant rebellion.
            But Joraleah – always Joraleah, never Leah or Jory or J – sprang from a close, loving family. Born of strong middle class heritage, the Johnston family called white collar suburban Philadelphia home. Johnston family tree roots ran deep reaching down to a proud, curious mix of Eastern European old countries including Romania. Mysterious Great Aunt Althea claimed the lineage actually sprang from Transylvania, with the family name being bastardized from its original Jahnstein. While this curious bit of ancestry, intriguing as it may be, had never been satisfactory proven, to Joraleah the inherited gypsy spirit brought with it an unspoken inner sense of confidence.
            Always remaining true to her nature, Joraleah grew to be at once as gentle and refreshing as the name she carried, and as formidable as a wind tossed sea. Her eighth Christmas witnessed an obscene onslaught of games, toys and clothes. Everything Joraleah could want but the one thing she desired the most, an unimposing Beanie Baby. That winter a determined Joraleah traded her Saturday skating lessons in favor of a snow shovel. Tirelessly clearing blanketed sidewalks and driveways, she soon earned enough money to purchase the coveted Beanie Baby, a tall unassuming blonde fellow with a cute heart shaped mole on his left temple.
            On her thirteenth birthday Joraleah wished to see Disney World. Disappointed but without complaint, she settled for a pair of mouse ears bestowed upon her by one of a dozen costumed characters hired to entertain guests at a rented Chuck-E-Cheese. Concentrating on her English classes, a year later Joraleah entered an essay contest, easily winning and securing a family vacation to the popular Florida attraction.
            In high school, Joraleah received an overwhelming number of write-in votes for the mundane position of treasurer. Undeterred, by senior year she had parlayed her acumen for saving and investing into the office of class president.
            And so the quiet teen grew into a strong, self-sufficient young woman, confidently regarding her life as a chrysalis in an ever evolving cocoon. Whenever life presented seemingly insurmountable obstacles, Joraleah found solace in a sudden spring shower and comfort in the refreshing autumn rain. Yet if there was one area of Joraleah’s life which was lacking, it was romance. Plain of features and shy by nature, Joraleah carried an inner beauty that shone with an intriguing and captivating aura to anyone taking the time to notice. The ones who bothered found her to be a trusted and valued friend, and Joraleah treasured the few close relationships she developed. And an indomitable inner spirit repeatedly reassured her that love lay just around the next corner.
            Longing to escape the well meaning but stifling judgments of family, after graduating from Drexel University, Joraleah discovered the welcoming liquid intimacy of life in the Pacific Northwest. Now approaching thirty, Joraleah was comfortably and happily hidden away from the always questioning, always critical, usually annoying world around her. She worked ten hours a day in a non-descript cubical, in a non-descript library, in a non-descript small college town as a senior research assistant. But Joraleah’s days continued to flow like the life giving fluid that surrounded and defined her existence.
            And that was just the way Joraleah liked it.
            “Here ya go, Lady J.” The student intern dropped a large stack of dusty file folders on Joraleah’s cramped, cluttered desk, “These need to be fact checked.” He grinned and headed down the dimly lit corridor. “By Monday,” he called back over his shoulder. “Have a nice weekend!”
            Joraleah sighed deeply to the drab beige walls of her cubical. “Thanks a lot,” she cried aloud, “and don’t call me Lady J!”
            It was an automatic gut reaction. She had no plans for the weekend. While maintaining a close circle of cherished friends, most of Joraleah’s weekends were spent curled up on her small sofa in her garage apartment going through a large dusty stack of file folders inconsiderately dropped on her cramped, cluttered desk. She had grown accustomed to being on her own; secure in the notion that true love would one day wash over her.
            Joraleah yawned and stretched like a waking cat. Blinking her tired eyes, the plastic wall clock came into a fuzzy focus: 10:14. She looked around. Hers was the only light still lit among the half dozen cubicles. “Of course,” she said to no one, “its 10:14 Friday night. Everyone else has plans, dates, and friends.” She shook her head. Long strands of unpinned chestnut brown hair fluttered about. “Wake up girl, time to go home… way past time to go home. What you need is a shower. Maybe a good wet soaking will revive you.”
            The still September night air was heavy, humid and pungent. They must have cut the grass on the mall today, Joraleah thought, wrinkling her nose to the sharp odor. As she crossed the deserted campus, the dozen file folders in her backpack caused the straps to pull at her shoulders. From nowhere a mild breeze arrived, tugging at the hem of her midi length skirt. Far above, a witch’s moon played hide and seek with the dark clouds slowly gathering from the south. Joraleah gave the ominous sky a discerning glance. “The old gods must be restless tonight. Oh, well…”
            The first raindrop touched Joraleah’s elbow, causing her to jump. At first she thought an insect had bitten her. The fallen drop seemed to glisten with a soft golden yellow hue in the waning moonlight. Another raindrop found Joraleah’s slightly turned nose. It burned, tickled and stung all at once, causing Joraleah to flick the unexpected visitor aside. In no time the moon had disappeared behind a blanket of inky black clouds. Joraleah quicken her pace, the wooden heels of her knee length boots echoing a rhythmic click off the smooth white pavement. She knew she wouldn’t make it home in time. Sudden autumn showers were no stranger to the area. But the quickness with which this one had developed sent a disquieting shiver through Joraleah’s body. Be careful what you wish, she thought, smiling to herself, this isn’t exactly the shower I had in mind.
            By the time she reached her front door, a light steady drizzle was falling, tickling her bare arms and causing her simple make-up to run. Shedding the bulging backpack, Joraleah reached for a soft gray bath towel and retreated to her bedroom.
            Late that night Joraleah sat upright in her bed, rubbing her red, weary eyes. She was surrounded by open file folders, hastily scribble notes on yellow legal paper, her lap top computer, an empty bag of Cheetos, and half a can of Hires root beer. It was 4:11 in the morning and she had finished checking the dozen or so facts in the final file folder. With a satisfied feeling of accomplishment, Joraleah slipped down into the welcoming covers, recalling the touch of the sudden shower on her skin. Her hands and arms began to tingle. Her slightly turned nose twitched once… twice… and Joraleah fell into a long, deep comfortable sleep.
            Sunday morning the sun shone brightly through the lace curtains of the single bedroom window. Exhausted from the week’s work load of researching half interesting topics ranging from the number of casualties in the Crimean War to the distillation of active amino acids, Joraleah had slept Saturday away. It was a routine that was quickly becoming a regular part of Joraleah’s life. As the sleep slowly left her, Joraleah vowed to spend more time away from her desk. The sound of a distant lawn mower filled the tiny bedroom. Mr. Green was mowing his lawn. Someone should ask him not to do it so early on Sunday morning. As she stretched, the scent of the freshly cut, dew laden grass reached Joraleah. It smelled sweet and brought with it pleasant thoughts of a summer long gone.
            Happily recalling the forgotten memory, she rose to start her day.
            Later that afternoon, Joraleah sat on an old wool blanket in a corner of a popular park. It was a ritual as predictable as the rest of her predictable existence: Sunday afternoons, the park, the old wool blanket, and a dog eared copy of romantic Elizabethan poetry. A bright sun warmed the early fall day. Joraleah looked around. A yellow tennis ball bounced past followed closely by a leaping black Lab and a laughing young boy. Not far away a group of students from the university were playing Hacky-Sack. A couple kissed tenderly as they relaxed in the waning shade of a thinning maple tree.
            Taking in the tranquil scene, Joraleah smiled, her thin lips curling to one side. She loved watching the children, and their games, and the obviously budding romances of those around her. She considered herself to be a hopeless romantic at heart. But Joraleah was more of a watcher, a timid observer of life. She lived vicariously while her heart remained cautiously closed; shuttered away against the world around her.
            But something was different today.
            Something was amiss within her safe routine.
            The fragrances of the fresh autumn day didn’t trigger her asthma. In fact, Joraleah found herself intoxicated by the patchwork of perfumes that floated on the air. They brought with them memories, memories of childhood days and family outings; pleasant, comfortable memories believed lost to the passage of time.
            And there was something else.
            The normally offensive sun that tended to burn and dry Joraleah’s sensitive skin felt warm and welcoming on her face and arms. Without much thought or concern, Joraleah relaxed back on the old wool blanket. Opening her book to a favorite poem by Christopher Marlowe, Joraleah began to read aloud:
                                    Come live with me, and be my love:
                                    And we will all the pleasures prove…
            Monday began like every other Monday in Joraleah’s life. Her cheeks did appear a bit rosier in the bathroom mirror. The handsome young cashier at Starbucks did look up as he handed back her change for the tall, non-fat mocha. And the usual pleasantries and head nods exchanged as she walked across campus did seem a bit more friendly and genuine. But by the time she reached her cubicle the curious sensations were forgotten. It was time to get to work.
            By 3:30, Joraleah was deeply engaged with a sixteenth century account of accepted social practices among members of the Protestant Reformation. Faintly aware of the presence of someone within her space, Joraleah continued to study the tome before her. “Just drop them on the desk with the others, please,” she said without looking up.
            “I’m sorry…”
            The voice was deep yet gentle and smooth, like crushed velvet to the touch. It seemed vaguely familiar.. Slowly looking up, Joraleah found herself peering into a pair of soft beagle brown eyes. “Oh, I’m… I’m sorry, I thought…”
            “It’s ok. I didn’t mean to interrupt your concentration.”
            Momentarily lost for words, Joraleah shuffled nervously in her chair. The visitor was tall, over six feet, with sandy blonde hair hastily parted to one side. He sported a worn tan corduroy jacket, the elbows capped with oval leather patches mostly out of necessity rather than fashion. The friendly brown eyes were framed with gold wire rimmed bifocals. She did know him. She had seen him a few times around campus and at the university book store.
            “Hello, I’m Edwin Notus.”
            Joraleah rose, accepting the outstretched hand in greeting. His touch was electric, pulling the smitten research assistant from her temporary reverie. “Yes, yes I know. You’re Professor Notus.” Feeling her cheeks redden, Joraleah shifted her gaze. “You’re from the history department. I‘ve read several of your papers.”
            “Yes, that’s what I’ve come to talk to you about.” So this was the mysterious woman he’d heard about in idle cafeteria chat and water cooler gossip. The bookish brunette who mostly kept to herself, eating lunch alone in her cubicle and staying buried in work. He’d often pondered the flowing, exaggerated initials that graced the bottom of his corrected documents. She was the one who was at least in part responsible for the success of the papers he’d published. Her proven and trusted research had even helped him to attain notoriety among his peers. “Please, call me Edwin.”
            Her smile was genuine, her timorous manner affecting. She was nothing like he’d imagined. The rumors and stories about ‘Plain Lady J, the research recluse’ were wrong. This woman was lovely. Her soft features and genteel face proclaimed an inner beauty that most overlooked.
            The unaccustomed nervousness began to settle a bit. Joraleah found herself becoming fascinated with the handsome visitor. “Yes, whatever you say, Professor… err… Edwin… My name is Joraleah.”
            “What a beautiful and lyrical name. You must be aware of its meaning.”
             For the first time she became conscious of the cute heart shaped mole on his left temple. “Thank you. No, not really, I’m not. It’s actually a combination of my parent’s names, Jordan and Leighanna.”
            “Joraleah,” he said softly, “it means gentle autumn rain.” Reluctantly, he allowed her slender hand to slip from his. “As I said, most beautiful; it suits you.”
            Butterflies once again filled her stomach. “Oh… well… what… what can I do for you?”
            “I have to present a paper on The Influence of Greek Mythology On 20th Century History. I have only a couple of weeks to finish and I am in desperate need of an assistant. I’d like for you to join me”
            The bout of nerves returned and Joraleah felt her stomach start to bubble. She’d met handsome men before. But the queasiness was a new sensation to her and not entirely unpleasant. She realized what the request would mean. There would be long hours and surely many late nights. The research alone would be overwhelming. But the thing that excited Joraleah the most was the fact that she’d be working closely with this intriguing man who affected her so strangely. “Gee, I don’t know. I’m already well behind in my work.”
            Once again Edwin’s soft brown eyes found Joraleah’s. “Please…”
            She felt herself yielding to his hypnotic gaze. “I… I’m…”
            “I’ve already cleared it with your department head. She’s given me the liberty to make full use of your time.”
            Edwin gathered Joraleah’s hands in his and the bubbles in her stomach began to effervesce.
            “Would you like some coffee?” Edwin and Joraleah sat in an old wooded booth in a secluded corner of Antonio’s Italian Villa Restaurant. The remains of lasagna with meatballs for two and a shared slice of cherry cheesecake littered the table. “Or would you prefer some more wine?”
            They had been working nearly non-stop for three days. Their first evening together he had walked her home. Late that night, she had come to the conclusion that she enjoyed the Professor’s company. Now, despite the work load still pending, Professor Notus managed to talk the reserved research assistant into accompanying him to dinner. The break from the dry, highly detailed work was a welcome and needed one. On the surface, Edwin Notus seemed a simple and honest man who loved history and loved teaching even more. He lived modestly in a small house on campus provided by the university. He was easy going, and Joraleah found herself increasingly drawn to him. Then again, Professor Notus was only one of a small number of men since her junior year in college with whom she’d shared more than just a few casual minutes.

            His name was Brad and he possessed an earthy, rugged handsomeness and unrelenting confidence that Joraleah found strangely attractive. She’d been paired with the brash young mid-westerner as a study partner in her Comparative Literature class. The semester progressed smoothly enough, Joraleah easily sidestepping his amours advances. However, her mixed feelings towards the BMOC often left her confused and frustrated. During Christmas break, a protracted argument with her parents about her chosen career path and desire to move away after graduation had resulted in Joraleah returning to college early. A few days after New Years, feeling particularly alone, the vulnerable coed confided in her study partner. That evening, as they lay across her dorm room bed preparing for mid-terms, Brad took the young coed into his powerful arms, kissing her neck, her cheek and finally her moist lips. Joraleah found herself giving in to the considerable charms of the smooth talking young man from Oklahoma. It wasn’t Joraleah’s first time with a man. But the encounter made her feel clumsy and awkward, and wishing that Brad would take notice of her timorous movements. He didn’t. Joraleah was left shaken and unfulfilled. A week later the semester ended, as did the brief relationship.

            Joraleah sat considering her dinner companion from across the table. He is a handsome man, she told herself, the cute heart shaped mole on his left temple stirring a long buried memory. Following her ill conceived dalliance with Brad, Joraleah had become disenchanted with the idea of a relationship. A few men entered her life, but she concentrated rather on her studies. As always, she reminded herself that one day love would come along. She just needed to be patient. But if there was one advantage to living on the outside it was that it afforded the opportunity to observe and study people. And Joraleah considered herself to be an excellent judge of people, at least from a distance. Yes, she decided, he is a kind and handsome man.
            “Hello, Earth to Joraleah.”
            The comment pulled Joraleah from her momentary reverie. Edwin sat poised across the table, a half empty bottle of vintage 1998 Sonoma Coast Chardonnay in his hand. He appeared to be studying her as closely as she had been studying him. The thought was at once flattering and embarrassing. “Oh, I’m… I’m sorry. No, I’d better not. I’m afraid any more wine would just make me giddy.”
            Undeterred, Edwin topped off her glass. “And would that be such a bad thing?”
            Joraleah’s cheeks grew full a blush. She diverted her eyes, fiddling uneasily with her napkin. “Well, I’m not…”
            His smile brightened the intimate booth. With an affectionate wink, he passed over her glass. “Then maybe you should.”
            In a rush of conflicted emotions, Joraleah returned the smile. She accepted the goblet, and glanced nervously about the cozy inn. “You know, I actually come here often. I really love this old place.”
            Edwin’s words flowed like a song on the air:
                        “It lies not in our power to love or hate,
                        For will in us is overruled by fate…”
            Joraleah’s surprised gaze found his. Her soft clear blue eyes danced in the flickering candle light, the words coming freely and in a sudden rush:
                        “When two are stripped, long ere the course begin,
                        We wish that one should love, the other win…”
            They clinked glasses, holding each other’s gaze in a distended embrace, and drank deeply. The clear pale wine was sweet and cool and comforting. It reached Joraleah’s stomach causing her toes to ball into tiny fists. As the tender moment ebbed, Joraleah found a voice for her thoughts. “How… how do you know Christopher Marlowe?”
            The disarming smile broadened.
            By the time they left Antonio’s, a gentle rain was falling. The cool drops elicited ringlets of wispy steam from the sun warm sidewalk. Strolling through the fine white mist, Joraleah found her hand resting comfortably in Edwin’s. A confection of feelings raced through her. To Joraleah’s surprise his grasp felt good; natural. As they reached her doorstep the rain picked up and Joraleah’s body began to relax. At first she thought it was the wine taking affect. A moment later she understood. Surrendering to the moment, Joraleah allowed the feelings to wash over her like the refreshing clear rain pouring down from above. Several raindrops touched her lips. The taste was sharp and satisfying.
            Without a word, she took Edwin’s face in her hands, pulling him close.
            The kiss lingered in the late September shower.
            Joraleah lay in her bed, joyously recalling the last three days of her life. A dozen new feelings had found her; a dozen old ones, long since boxed away had escaped their confinement. She felt at once alive with new sensations, yet betrayed by her own instincts. Following the previous night’s intimacy, Joraleah had panicked. There was no other word to describe her behavior. Acting no better than a silly school girl on her first date, she had panicked. Suddenly breaking away from the kiss, she had bolted into the house.
            Joraleah laughed aloud, “Where does one run to escape from feelings?” The question gave her cause to wonder. As she showered, Joraleah thought about her life. She thought of college and of Brad. She thought of the other men in her life, the few who tried in vain to capture her heart. Unconsciously she adjusted the shower head. The warm water felt good as it rained down on her smooth skin.
            It stung.
            Like the bite of mosquitoes.
            At work, Joraleah found it nearly impossible to concentrate. The nearness of the man who affected her so powerfully clouded her mind; betrayed her judgment. Several times she was asked to recheck an important fact, or verify a date, only to find she had made an error. Looking up from behind a stack of reference books, Edwin removed his glasses and rubbed his eyes. “Hey, are you ok? You seem a bit distracted today.”
             “Yeah, yeah, I’m fine. Just a little tired.”
            “Maybe it’s due to a little too much wine last night?”
            “No, it’s nothing like that.”
            With a sagacious smile, Professor Notus turned to his work partner. “Something’s going on in that complex but pretty head of yours. And I need my assistant’s full attention today. C’mon, give, what’s up?”
            Joraleah shifted uneasily. “I’m not really sure. It’s… it’s complicated.”
            “It’s about last night, isn’t it?”
            She didn’t answer. Sitting at his side, Joraleah continued to stare blankly at the notes scribbled on the yellow legal table. Yes, yes it was about last night. And it wasn’t. It was about too many last nights, and about not enough. It was about him; and about her; and about him and her. She could feel her arms ache to hold him; her lips yearn to kiss him. And yet her heart remained conflicted, longing for the feelings offered, yet afraid to accept. God, how could she ever begin to explain it to him? She didn’t understand it fully herself.
            Gently lifting her chin, Professor Edwin Notus gazed deeply into Joraleah’s azure eyes. “Her lips suck forth my soul: see where it flies!”
            Joraleah melted into Edwin’s tender embrace as their lips met; their tongues touched. This time she didn’t fight the feelings. This time she didn’t run.
            The next ten days seemed to fly past. The tedious workload of checking and rechecking each factoid, every entry increased. But the deadline wasn’t the only thing growing closer. Since their passionate kiss in the Professor’s office, Joraleah could feel herself falling for Edwin. Accepting what seemed to be inevitable, she’d permitted her thoughts, and her feelings to run free. Joraleah felt alive. She awoke each morning feeling refreshed and happy. She looked forward to the day’s activities as well as its challenges. She’d permitted an outsider a furtive look inside of her private cocoon. With each passing day, Professor Edwin Notus was peeling open the cover that surrounded her existence. And Joraleah liked the view slowly revealing itself before her.
            But her heart remained stubbornly distant.
            They had spent every waking hour of the last six days together, cramming to finish. Long hours of study and research, fueled on coffee and excitement were followed by a quick dinner and more research, usually in the study of the Professor’s home. All the while Edwin remained the proper gentleman. They shared tender caresses and lingering good night kisses at her door; each arousing new feelings and exciting sensations within Joraleah. And each night the Professor would return to his home, reminding her of work yet to be accomplished. Joraleah appreciated the unhurried pace with which Edwin led their growing relationship. It afforded her the time she needed to understand and accept her emerging feelings for this striking man who had come so suddenly and unexpectedly into her life.
            “Don’t you think maybe you’ve had enough?” Joraleah shifted uneasily on the plush, crushed red velvet sofa. Glancing about, she began to question her recent choices.
            From across the fancily decorated room, Edwin Notus turned, eyeing Joraleah with an uneasy leer. “Don’t be silly. This is a celebration. We are celebrating, aren’t we?” Notus laughed out loud. “Well, at least I am! I was brilliant tonight!” With that he turned his attention back to the massive wooden bar and the glass pitcher of Cactus Flower Margaritas.
            “Yes, yes you were brilliant tonight, Edwin. I was very proud of you. I just thought…”
            “Well stop it!” The rough comment sounded to Joraleah more like an order than conversation. It caused the surprised young woman to jump in her seat. Striding across the deeply woven carpet, a fresh pitcher of margaritas in hand, Professor Notus continued. “That’s what’s wrong with you my dear, you think too much! Too much… too long… too deeply… all the time! You don’t know when to stop, or how to relax! Well, I’ve got the cure for that right here.”

            It was three AM Saturday morning, and Joraleah and Edwin sat in the spacious living room of a luxury suite in Las Vegas’ famous Bellagio Hotel. Earlier that evening Professor Notus had presented his research paper to some seventy five top minds in the fields of history and anthropology. The large gathering was attentive and receptive to the Professor’s words, eventually rising in a polite standing ovation. At the reception and dinner afterwards, Joraleah was a vision in the softly shimmering turquoise evening gown she had purchased especially for the occasion. With her hair flatteringly coiffed, and more make-up then she had ever worn highlighting her expressive eyes and genteel features, Joraleah looked and felt beautiful.
            Edwin barely seemed to take notice.
            As the Professor circulated among his colleagues, Joraleah shyly melted into the background. After all, this was the Professor’s big moment. Buoyed on alcohol and egotism Notus eagerly basked in the spotlight of his sudden popularity. His speech had been an overwhelming success, his paper an academic triumph, and he seemed determined to make the most of his personal fifteen minutes of fame. Joraleah understood and watched proudly from the sidelines. The evening, indeed nearly every day and night of the past two weeks since Professor Edwin Notus came into her life, had been filled with new and exciting feelings. But now, as she stood in polite silence, Joraleah felt a new sensation, a new feeling washing over her. Yes, Edwin had formulated the hypothesis, written and presented the paper. But it was her research; her corrections and fact checking; and her tireless attention to detail that had made the paper a success.
            A sudden flash of anger came over the pretty research assistant, followed immediately by waves of confusion and self doubt. Joraleah quickly brushed them aside. She had a right to feel jealous and jaded. Joraleah raised a crystal flute of mediocre champagne to her painted lips, but then stopped. Was it just the alcohol affecting her thinking? This was Professor Notus’s moment. He deserved the praise and accolades being lavished upon him. But she deserved some notice as well. How many times in the past had this same scene played out, in other hotels and conference rooms, with other professors and doctors presenting papers and findings on a myriad of topics she had researched and corrected?
            The twinge of jealousy flared up again. Joraleah had smiled to herself, set the glass of potent liquor aside, and returned to the hotel room alone.

            Professor Notus’ sudden and uncalled for remarks touched Joraleah, hurt her feelings. She had done nothing to warrant this attack on her character. Joraleah rose from the sofa.
            “Oh, sit down, Jory! Don’t be such a child. You know perfectly well what I meant… Here…” Notus filled a tall, salt rimmed goblet with the reddish gold concoction, shoving the over flowing glass in front of Joraleah. “This will do you some good.”
            Painting on a half hearted smile, she accepted the drink. Maybe he was right; maybe she did need to relax a bit. This was supposed to be a celebration. She was in a beautiful hotel suite in the most exciting city in the world, with a handsome man whom she admired deeply. It was time; time for Joraleah to emerge the beautiful butterfly, but in a different way.
            Joraleah raised her glass.
            “To the new Jory,” Notus proclaimed.
            “No!” The reply was sure; determined. “It’s Joraleah!”
            He ignored the sudden declaration. Notus’ glass clinked against hers and they drank deeply.
            With a sudden harsh laugh, the Professor snatched the glass from Joraleah’s hand, impetuously flinging it and his own aside. The expensive crystal shattered into a thousand tiny pieces in a corner of the room. Grabbing her delicate wrist, Notus pulled Joraleah to him, forcefully kissing her tender lips. Unaccustomed to the harshness of his embrace, Joraleah resisted. But as the potent liquor reached her head, and the heat of their passion spread throughout her quivering body, Joraleah found herself surrendering to the moment.
            As if on cue, Notus became a man possessed. Holding the stunned woman at arm’s length, he tugged at the plunging neckline of her gown, tearing the delicate material, exposing her modest breasts. Towering over her, Edwin’s mouth found the smooth nape of Joraleah’s neck, kissing and nibbling hungrily. His grasping hand roughly cupped her exposed breast, as he continued to kiss his way down the front of her trembling body.
            Joraleah was trapped, betrayed by her own pent up emotions. Her head spun dizzily as her aching body melted in the professor’s powerful embrace. Sweeping her up in his arms, Notus carried his willing captive into the bedroom.
            In an instant he was on top of her, pulling at the remains of her once beautiful gown, pawing avariciously at her aching flesh. In a sudden single violent thrust he had entered her, taken her for his own.
            Joraleah’s mind raced wildly in a blur of maddening desire. Yes… yes… wasn’t this what she’d longed for… to be taken… to be needed… wanted… and desired?
            Monday morning Joraleah arose, a thousand thoughts filling her anxious mind; a million sensations flooding her body. She felt renewed, reborn, and alive.
            Was she in love?
            Were these the feelings, the emotions, the pleasures she longed to find?
            Thick grey threatening clouds followed Joraleah as she hurried across campus. Heading up the old wooden stairs of the university’s history department, she approached the receptionist’s desk. “Is he in?” she asked, “Edwin… Professor Notus, is he in yet?”
            “Oh, I’m sorry,” the receptionist replied, “didn’t you know? Professor Notus is gone.”
            “Gone… what, what do you mean… gone?”
            “The Professor accepted a position at UCLA as head of their history department. I assumed you knew about it, everyone else on campus did. He tendered his resignation over a month ago. Last Friday was his final day.”
            Throwing open the unlocked door, Joraleah stepped into a darkened paneled office. Before her an expanse of gently worn wine colored carpet led to a large antique oak desk, its top uncluttered and desolate. Massive floor to ceiling book cabinets lined three walls, the shelves empty and barren. A lone trash can, filled with crumpled papers and discarded file folders sat in mute testament to the painful truth. On top lay a book of Elizabethan poetry.
            Joraleah turned towards the door. Blinking back a tear, she wandered down the deserted hall and stepped out into the overcast fall morning. The air was heavy, humid and pungent. Slowly she crossed the campus. The wooden heels of her knee length boots echoed with a rhythmic click off the smooth white pavement. From nowhere a mild southern breeze arrived, tugging at the hem of her midi length skirt. Joraleah gave the ominous sky a glance and smiled. “The old gods must be restless today. Maybe a good wet soaking is what I need.”
            Be careful what you wish, she thought, remembering the last two weeks; recalling Brad and the other men that had come in and out of her life.
            The first raindrop touched Joraleah’s elbow. It glistened with a soft golden yellow hue. Another raindrop found Joraleah’s slightly turned nose as she raised her face skyward. Soon a steady rain began to fall. It matted her hair and streaked her light makeup. The cool drops felt good on her skin as they washed away her tears.
            “Now this is more like it,” Joraleah called to the rain, laughing aloud. “Love will find me… someday. But, if it doesn’t…”

            With a knowing smile and a contented sigh, Joraleah headed off across campus.