Friday, May 2, 2014

Waiting For Calliope by BJ Neblett

Waiting For Calliope
BJ Neblett
© 2014
            As a writer, it is always interesting to me where and how we find inspiration. Waiting for Calliope to return from a coffee break with her sisters can be frustrating. On the other hand, one never knows when, or from which dark corner the muse may spring. The last thing I expected Easter Sunday as I headed out for a stroll through the Sunday Farmer’s Market and coffee at Starbucks was to return home with a fully formed poem ready to be put to pen. And, as most writers will attest, once bitten, the motivation is nearly impossible to ignore. Paraphrasing Stephen King here, who was once asked why he writes: “… because not to is suicide.”
            Recently though, I have discovered the flip side of the creative process. It is every writer’s dream and desire to be published. But how many realize, let alone understand, that once a piece is unleashed into the public, it can, and often does, take on a life of its own? Following Google stats is one way of tracking the popularity, as well as the progress of one’s writings. A much more eye opening experience, however, can be Googling one self.
Quote: BJ Neblett Photo: Unattributed

           In the last few months, I have noticed, through Google Stats and other sources, a steep increase in blog readership in England. While new fans are always welcomed and appreciated, exactly where did these readers come from? What was the catalyst for being ‘discovered’ by the Brits? Google Stats, while informative and helpful, can take you only so far. Last week I Googled myself, something I do about once a month. (My publisher is a great advocate of ISO, Internet Search Optimization. His belief, and he is correct, is that the more presence your name has when searched for on the internet, the greater your reach as a writer). It is through regularly searching my name that I find the true extent of my humble words.
            I have found many of my quotes cited far across the net. My sage words have been used on sites as varied as Mama’s Health; Theo Fenraven Blog; Meetville, and Fanfiction. They have also been used to inspire and caption some very beautiful, stirring and thought provoking photographs. The realization that my simple scribbling has touched so many in so many different places, and in so many different ways, is at once flattering and humbling. The recent surge of my popularity in England is an interesting case in point.
Photo by David Baer

            Surfing for my name in the endless either of the internet, I stumbled upon an intriguing and entertaining site: Around The Tube In Eighty Posts. Alphabetically. It is from tubeforlols on Wordpress. It seems one Sandy Craig, blogging about his trips aboard the London Underground, discovered a ‘Thought For The Day’ posted in the Clapham North Station. The inspiring words, posted so prominently to tens of thousands of London commuters were my own! Having been properly cited, I can only imagine in my fertile writer’s imagination the multitude of travel weary riders hastily scrolling the name BJ Neblett on a scrap of paper, later to do their own internet search for the proprietor of those words of wisdom. And not only did I receive some very public exposure, Mr. Craig was kind enough to mention me in his wonderful blog. For your enjoyment, I have included links to his page as well as many of the other varied places I have found myself and my words.
Source: Capture-Shoot-Dream

            And so it goes. Is the pen really mightier than the spoken word? I spent the better part of my life as a radio DJ. It is awesome to imagine that words I spoke could very well still be traveling through space and time itself. Perhaps, someday, my voice, introducing a Chuck Berry tune, will be the first surreptitious sounds received by some distant alien culture. The advent of the internet has been both a boon and a bane to mankind; a blessing and a burden. And it carries with it the same far reaching abilities, responsibilities and consequences.
Haiku: BJ Neblett Photo: Unattributed

           So, the next time you are waiting for Calliope, or Erato or one of their kin to whisper in your ear, think not only about the words you are about to write, but where those very same words may end up.

Peace,
BJ

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Friday, April 18, 2014

She Loves You by BJ Neblett

Hello again and happy spring! I have been keeping busy with new stories appearing in Romance Magazine as well as on line at Short Story Me. Thanks to all who have made my work both publications so popular! Once again I offer up another random chapter from my follow up historical memoir A Change Is Gonna Come, which should be out this winter. As you know, like Ice Cream Camelot it not only follows my life, it traces what was going on in the country and the world at the time. So here is a quick and entertaining history lesson from the mid '60's. Enjoy, and be sure to like, link, comment and spread the love.
Peace,
BJ

She Loves You
BJ Neblett
© 2004, 2013

            January, 1964. Emerging folk singer Bob Dylan said it first, and best: The Times They Are A-Changin’. In an ironic twist, it was Dylan’s songs that were helping to bring about dramatic changes to popular music. Folk music had always been about real things, real people; real occurrences. Dylan sang about the things that he saw happening around him; around all of us. What Dylan and the rest of us witnessed in the ‘60’s were social, political, economical and cultural changes. Unlike the personal changes controlling my own young life, thanks to my interest in President Kennedy I had begun to appreciate and agree with most of the changes taking place in the world. They seemed obvious and natural. What I didn’t get was why so many adults didn’t seem to understand. It was frustrating. Most of the changes were clearly necessary and overdue, but the struggle and methodology wasn’t pretty.
            The Civil Rights movement was a perfect example; a large part of the irony I saw all around me. In Lawrence Park, the development where we’d moved after leaving South Philadelphia, there were no blacks. In school we were taught God created everyone equally. That tenant was part of the American Constitution. And yet, at St. Pius X Grade School there were no blacks. Furthermore, in class the girls sat behind the boys; and for the most part women in general were treated like second class citizens. Ever since Rosa Parks refused to give up her seat on a Montgomery, Alabama, bus in 1955, we’d witness protests and demonstrations against segregation, nightly on the TV news. In the last couple of years those demonstrations had turned ugly and violent. My fallen hero, John F. Kennedy had repeatedly urged Congress to pass legislation directed at ending segregation. On January 23, 1964 the 24th Amendment eliminated the Poll Tax in federal elections. Kennedy’s successor, Lyndon B Johnson continued his predecessor’s efforts, eventually signing the Civil Rights Act of 1964. And yet, the often violent practice of segregation, and the demonstrations to end it, continued.
            In May, black youths Charles Moore and Henry Dee were beaten and killed by members of the Ku Klux Klan. Although suspects were identified, the murders would go down as unsolved. The same month, the NAACP and the Motor Car Dealers Association reached an agreement on the hiring of blacks. The agreement was the direct result of sit-ins in new car showrooms in San Francisco and fifty other American cities. In June, legislatures from southern states led a successful filibuster in Congress, forcing the Senate to limit debate on a purposed civil rights bill. On the 21st of June, violence once again flared up in Mississippi as three young civil rights workers were murdered. It would take four decades before a suspect was brought to justice. At the same time some 700 young people, mostly from the north, descended on Mississippi to teach in “freedom schools” and register black voters. The violence in the south and growing discontent in America’s black neighborhoods resulted in riots breaking out in several cities including New York City, Rochester, Chicago, Patterson, New Jersey, and Philadelphia. Later in the year, The Reverend Martin Luther King received the Nobel Peace Prize for his peaceful efforts to end segregation. In a statement that punctuated the growing rift in the struggle for equality, J Edger Hoover called King, “The most notorious liar in the country.” The comment resulted from King’s harsh criticism of the FBI’s handling of racial issues in the south. In 1965 the protests grew as did the violence, with demonstrations and confrontations spreading throughout the south. As Kennedy had done before, President Johnson was forced to send in troops to protect protesters marching peacefully from Selma to Montgomery, Alabama.
            Political and social leader Malcolm X had left the Nation of Islam in 1964. An outspoken proponent of Civil Rights, he believed the group’s policies towards integration to be too soft. Openly criticizing both the Nation of Islam and Reverend King for their non-violence stance, Malcolm X called upon blacks to rise up against what he termed the white man’s rule. On February 21, 1965, as he prepared to address the Organization of Afro-American Unity at the Audubon Ballroom in Manhattan, Malcolm X was shot and killed by three members of the Nation of Islam. By the summer of 1965, race riots had again erupted in Chicago, Los Angeles and other US Cities.
            Watching live coverage of the Philadelphia riots on TV, I bitterly vowed to ignore the ongoing struggles for equality. Camelot was dead. The powers now firmly in charge, the older establishment America, had killed Kennedy. And it seemed they would soon squash his dreams of a racially balanced country. There was nothing I could do about it. I retreated back into my comfortable personal existence, and the world once again receded into its role as background players in my life’s story. Soon, though, a new school and some new, caring teachers would reignite my interest in social issues.
            Bob Dylan’s songs, along with other folk tunes of the decade, sharply reminded America of the many short falls and inequities that still needed to be overcome. At the same time, that very same music helped to polarize the nation, drawing defining lines between the older establishment and the younger generation. As the decade progress, the gap between generations would only widen. And music would be at the core.
            On January 18, 1964, the Beatles made their first appearance on Billboard’s Hot 100 Chart, placing I Wanna Hold Your Hand at the number thirty five position. Following a taped segment on the Jack Parr Show, and the groups’ first live American TV performance on Ed Sullivan, the song shot to number one, remaining at the top for seven weeks, eventually being replaced by their own She Loves You. It was nearly impossible to take a breath during 1964 without hearing about the group of mop tops from Britain. On February 3 their LP Meet The Beatles went gold. The same month they began their first American tour with a concert at Washington, DC’s Coliseum, followed by two performances at New York’s Carnegie Hall and a second appearance on the Ed Sullivan Show. They visited Cassius Clay as he trained for his heavy weight bout with Sonny Liston. Then filming of the band’s first movie, A Hard Day’s Night began in March. The film was released in the US in August to widespread acclaim.
            On the heels of their countrymen, on June 1 the Rolling Stones arrived at Kennedy Airport in New York to begin their own American tour. By year’s end, the music charts had been taken over by the numerous bands of the British invasion. But American music wasn’t quite dead yet. It had been ten years since the first stirrings of rock ‘n’ roll, and a new generation of young enthusiasts had grown up. The new American rock held its own against the onslaught from across the Atlantic with timeless hits like Louie Louie, I Get Around, Where Did Our Love Go, Rag Doll, Baby I Need Your Lovin’, and Pretty Woman. In 1965 a new electrified genre called Folk Rock, led by the Byrds and the Mamas and the Papas would claim the air waves. The same year, Bob Dylan would electrify himself and his music, to the condemnation of folk purists and the overwhelming approval of the new rockers. But by 1966 Dylan had silenced his detractors, even winning over the support of music critics. Once again, the pioneering musician had changed the face of pop music.
            I had retired my old trusted transistor radio, partly because of the changes coming out of it. The Beatles weren’t bad; I didn’t care much for the Rolling Stones or the other British Invasion bands at the time. Having recently mastered playing the guitar, I clung to what was left of the old rock ‘n’ roll and slowly gravitated towards folk music. It would be another year before I fully accepted what was now passing as popular music. The new friends I encountered at my new school, especially the girls, would have a strong influence on my musical taste.
            While the British were boisterously invading America, America was quietly and secretly invading Southeast Asia. The struggle between North and South Vietnam wasn’t a new one. Since the end of the Second World War when the country was divided, the south had been fighting for its independence while northern forces were intent on unifying the tiny country under communist rule. The French gave up its defense of South Vietnam, and the political mess ended up in the lap of our new young president. Reluctant to bring the US into another war, Kennedy approved sending non-combatant advisers to aid the South Vietnam forces. The buildup of US aid continued, culminating in the Gulf Of Tonkin.
            On August 2, 1964, the destroyer USS Maddox engaged three North Vietnamese Navy torpedo boats in the Gulf Of Tonkin. The three torpedo boats were heavily damaged and four North Vietnamese sailors were killed. One US aircraft carrier and the Maddox were slightly damaged. Two days later, the US National Security Agency claimed that a second encounter between the two forces had taken place. This incident was later proven to be false. However, the result of the two incidents was the passage by Congress of the Gulf Of Tonkin Resolution. This gave President Johnson the authority to assist any Southeast Asian country whose government was considered to be threatened by communist aggression. The resolution gave the president legal justification for the deployment of conventional forces and the start of open warfare against the North. By September, US destroyers were regularly firing on targets in North Vietnam.
            As Russia and Communist China continued to supply the northern forces of Ho Chi Minh, President Johnson steadily increased the number of American troops supporting the Army of the Republic of Vietnam (ARVN), through his policy of “graduated pressure”. In March of 1965 more than 150 US and South Vietnamese planes bombed two bases in North Vietnam in the first of the Rolling Thunder raids. On April 6 Johnson authorized the use of ground troops in combat operations. By year’s end American troops in Vietnam numbered nearly 185,000. Within a year that number would more than double. Meanwhile, the Joint Chief of Staff organized a war game code named Sigma II. The secret operation tried to gauge reaction to continued conflict with Hanoi and the Viet Cong. Ironically it predicted that continued escalation would result in diminished public support for the president’s policies. They were right. In 1965, a new type of demonstration began to appear on college campuses along side of those supporting desegregation. The college students were now protesting America’s growing involvement in Southeast Asia. In Washington DC, the Students for a Democratic Society (SDS) held its first anti-Vietnam war rally.
            President Johnson’s State of the Union address in January of 1965 highlighted his goals for his Great Society. The agenda called for extensive programs including combating diseases; doubling the war on poverty; stricter and more extensive enforcement of Civil Rights Laws; reforming immigration laws, and support for better education. The program attracted support for a time, but Johnson’s Great Society would soon fall victim to the escalating, undeclared war in Vietnam.
            While tensions in the cold war between the US and the Soviet Union had eased, a different conflict between the two countries continued in the atmosphere above the earth. By the time Ed White became the first American to walk in space on June 3, 1965, testing of nuclear devices underwater, in the atmosphere and in space had been banned by a 1963 agreement between the US, the Soviets and the UK. Nuclear testing continued above and underground on a limited bases, eventually giving rise to more college protests. But the Soviets had caught America and the world by surprise with their successful launch of Sputnik, the first satellite to orbit the earth, in 1957. Since then the US space program had been playing a game of catch up. Having successfully concluded its pioneering Mercury Program, NASA set its sights on fulfilling President Kennedy’s mandate of reaching the moon. The manned Gemini Program, begun in 1965 placed two astronauts in a single craft. Its successful rendezvous in space with a second capsule in December of that year, and the eventual docking of the two crafts in 1966, paved the way for the more ambitious Apollo Program.
            My interest in the race for space continued as I faithfully watched each launch live on our 19” black and white TV. Slim, attractive color televisions, along with remote controls were rapidly replacing the old boxy sets of the fifties. My practical, thrifty father stubbornly stuck with our old square Emerson.  Dad had been promoted to chief plant electrician at his work, receiving a commensurate raise in pay. But modern conveniences were slow to arrive at the Neblett household. It would be 1970 before Dad bought an air conditioned car, and Mom received a dishwasher and a color TV. The summer of 1965 central air conditioning was finally installed in our house. The same year my second car, a 1957 Chevy, lost its home as the recreation room was expanded into the garage. Still not old enough to drive, and under the surveillance of some nosy neighbors, it became more difficult to sneak away for a night of joy riding.
            Modern conveniences took a hit on November 9, 1965, when a major power failure hit the East Coast of the US. Just after 5:30 PM, New York City experienced a blackout that quickly spread, eventually encompassing nine Northeastern states and parts of Canada. The outage, which lasted for up to thirteen and a half hours in places, was blamed on a malfunctioning switch at a station near Niagara Falls.
            After blowing a shot at the National League Pennant in 1964, my Phillies ended the ‘65 season in sixth place, eleven and a half games behind the Los Angeles Dodgers. LA would go on to defeat the Minnesota Twins four games to three to clench the World Series title. Minnesota had won their first pennant since 1933 when the team was based in DC as the Washington Senators. But the Dodgers had plenty to celebrate as well during their 97 game winning season. Pitching aces Don Drysdale and Sandy Koufax had won 23 and 26 games respectively. Koufax also pitched a perfect game on September 9, becoming the first left hander to do so since 1880. The overpowering southpaw won the Cy Young award in 1963, 1965 and 1966, retiring in 1966 at the age of 36 due to arthritis in his left elbow. Elsewhere, San Francisco’s Willie Mays hit his 512th home run on May 4, surpassing Mel Ott’s longstanding record.
             My own stuttering career as a pitcher would have a brief resurgence as I fumbled my way through my first encounter with public school.

Sunday, March 16, 2014

Becky by BJ Neblett

A broken heart can be devastating and lasting, regardless of the form it may take.






My beloved Becky in
happier times.






Becky
BJ Neblett
© 2014

            I remember the very first time my heart was broken. How can anyone forget something like that? I’m not talking about puppy love here, or a crush, or deep infatuation or even your first real romance. Having your heart broken, truly and totally broken, affects your entire body and every aspect of your life. The physical pain is there, just as real as a broken bone, only deeper, more intense. The emotional pain is indescribable, permeating and coloring everything you do, and all of your daily activities.
            The ironic thing is that my first broken heart came not in the form of unrequited love, but rather in the guise of stone and mortar.
            What does a magnificent Victorian house have to do with love and breaking hearts? To a hopeless romantic like me she was the embodiment of my deepest reverie. She was truly a thing of beauty, the kind of lady you fall for instantly; the seductress who haunts your dreams and blurs your days; the one you never fully get over.
           
            I was maybe nine years old when I first met Becky. My family had recently moved to the suburbs. I spied her several times from afar through the dusty window of our old Ford sedan. She stood like a grand mistress, regally dominating the landscape from her noble perch atop a gracefully slopping hill top. But to me, she seemed more a warm friendly companion than the dominating queen. She called to me, silently weaving her spell. As I lay awake I could hear her sweet Siren song floating on the warm night air. It spoke to me, beckoned me, and filled my dreams with grand images from another era.
            Soon, I was deep into exploring the new and fascinating world around me. Suburbia was unlike anything I’d ever experienced running the streets of south Philly. I missed the familiar feel of concrete beneath my Converse, yet soon discovered a strange affection for the green grass and blue skies and open spaces of my new home. Pedaling my trusty old Columbia two wheeler one warm summer morning, I found myself at the entrance to a long, gracefully curving driveway. Hopping off my bicycle, I looked up in awestruck silence. Becky peered down at me from her lofty position, her sweeping portico a welcoming smile to a weary traveler. She spoke to me, inviting me to visit, with the tender, genteel voice of a refined lady. I had recently finished reading Tom Sawyer and perhaps Twain’s earthy prose struck a chord. “Hello, Becky, my name is Billy. It is very nice to meet you ma’am,” I said aloud and started up the tulip lined driveway.

            Becky was born in 1907. A generation earlier three brothers, French/Irish immigrants, arrived in America with little more than what they could carry. With ingenuity, hard work and a bit of luck, they made their fortune. Becky was the brothers’ crowning accomplishment, a graceful monument to the American Dream. She stood atop a peaceful hillside, commanding a breathtaking view of the original thirty plus wooded acres through which passed a gently flowing river. Her structure was of massive hand hewn granite blocks; her form a unique combination of French Castle and stately English Manor.  Becky wore an elegant sloping burnt orange slate roof; and sported grand over-square leaded window casements. As befitting any castle, ivy covered the side and rear walls of the main building, as well as the smaller carriage house. Becky’s corner battlements, capped with skyward sweeping spires earned her the majestic nickname of Château Épatant.

            As I mounted the three polished marble steps, Becky’s immense front porch seemed to embrace me. Hesitating for just a moment, I slowly opened one of the massive mahogany doors and entered. Instantly, I was transported to a time of stiff round collars and handlebar moustaches; Gibson Girl hairdos and tightly synched waist lines; of high wheeled bicycles and brass motor cars; lawn croquet and Sunday picnics. I became dizzy, lost to the heady atmosphere of a forgotten time. It was a time and a feeling I wanted to know better; a place I wanted to experience.
            The grand entry loomed over me three stories high. An imposing stone stairway seemed to extend to the very heavens. I could feel the house’s rhythmic pulse emanating from the rich wooden paneling. Becky’s pounding heartbeat met my own and we became one.
            My feet never felt the blacktop as I raced down the drive. It seemed as if my heart would burst as I pedaled faster and faster. Scrambling through the screen door of our modest home, I announced proudly and loudly that I was going to one day buy the old mysterious castle on the hill.
            Mom smiled, “That’s nice, Billy.”
           
            A dozen years later, I returned from service in the Army to find my beloved Becky fallen on hard times. With no surviving heirs, she passed unnoticed through a few unconcerned hands, finally landing as a ward of the state. A group of investors, more interested in profit than history insulted my lady, dividing her spacious rooms and defacing the once lush front lawn. The newly erected tacky wooden sign indignantly declared: Castle Apartments, Elegant Living for Discerning Adults. However the intended residents never materialized. Becky became a haven for transients and directionless young people. Hard rock and all night acid parties replaced the formal cotillions in the once elegant ball room. It wasn’t long before the owners and police alike had enough. Becky was closed, shuttered and abandoned.
            I never gave up on my desire to purchase Becky. My daily commutes to school; friend’s houses; on dates, and to work took me past the gracefully aging beauty. I would smile and nod knowingly, whispering, “Someday, Becky, someday, I promise.”
            My chance came a year later. Local officials decided to make one last attempt to do something with the once proud property. Rumors of developers wishing to erect modern condos on her grounds abounded. The historical society failed in an attempt to raise capital to establish her as a local museum. Working with a realtor friend, I began to lay the ground work for making my dream a reality. During an inspection of the building, I found Becky still strong, noble and no worse for the wear. I could still feel her heartbeat as it matched and meld with my own.
            Three nights later I awaken to the sounds of distant bells and frantic sirens. As I peered out of my bedroom window, the night sky took on an ominous smoky red-orange hue.
            My heart ceased to beat.
            It took firefighters from four departments all night and most of the next day to extinguish the massive fire. When the smoke finally cleared all that remained of Château Épatant was four charred stone walls. Vandals had taken Becky’s life.

            As with any true love affair, I never fully got over Becky. It was the first time my heart had been broken. It wouldn’t be the last. But as the saying goes, perhaps the first cut truly is the deepest. I have lived several places since then; owned a couple of houses. Whenever I come across a Victorian style building I remember Becky. I can still hear her voice and feel her heart beat with mine.

The last time I saw Becky.