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Thursday, January 24, 2013

:30 Minutes by BJ Neblett


:30 Minutes
by BJ Neblett
© 1992, 2013

            It was Sunday night, the kind of night when windows were left open to a breeze that never came; a night before air conditioning, before locked doors, before fear, before apathy.
            Lights were turned off.
            Shades were pulled up.
            Sheets were turned down.
            It was a hot Sunday night in July. It was bed time but no one slept.
            Outside, streetlights called to mosquitoes.
            Inside, mothers called to children; lovers called to each other.
            The small suburban community was close. The people worked, played and prayed together. They knew and took care of each other. They had grown up together. In a neighborhood where a single fence stretched for blocks and the only difference was the color of the houses, it only seemed natural.
            Each house was the same; each house different.
            Each occupant was an individual, each individual a neighbor; each neighbor a friend.
            It was 10:45 on a hot Sunday night in July. It was bed time but no one slept. The summer silence was shattered by a car careening down North Street at top speed.
            Rubber squealed on pavement.
            Metal twisted against metal.
            Glass exploded in the air.
            Exhaust hammered.
            It was a Sunday night in July. The residence of North Street lay sleepless and frozen in their beds by the sounds they heard coming from outside.
            “Was that a car?”
            “It sounded like trash cans.”
            “Did it come from up the street?”
            By the time reality seized the startled neighbors the car’s muffled exhaust had paused briefly then faded into the hot summer night. The momentary silence was broken by the sound of doors opening and closing up and down the street.
            Mother’s were in robes.
            Father’s were in pajama bottoms.
            Children with runny noses pointed.
            Each looked at one another, questioning, asking, puzzling.
            “Two cars had been drag racing.”
            “The police were chasing someone.”
            It was the Kelly’s blue Chevrolet that witnessed the truth. Once shiny and stately, now crumbed and humbled, smashed against a telephone pole.
            A spark ignited.
            A flame caught hold.
            A car blazed in the hot July night.
            Bob Thompson ran to call the fire department. Mr. Parker held his wife. Everyone listened to Mrs. Johnson exclaiming it was all so terrible; everyone but the Kelly’s.
            A shadowy figure appeared.
            A man was running.
            Mr. Martin carried a fire extinguisher.
            In seconds the white chemical had choked out the red-yellow flames. A final gray cloud billowed into the black summer sky.
            “How could such a thing happen?”
            “Did anyone see anything?”
            “Where are the Kelly’s?”
            At that moment, Mr. Martin was pounding on the front door of the Kelly home. Lights hop scotched through the darkened house, ending at the front porch as the door opened. Mr. Martin put his arm around Mr. Kelly.
            “It was an unidentified car.”
            “It had raced down High Street.”
            “It failed to make the turn.”
            Mrs. Martin comforted Mrs. Kelly.
            It was 11:05 on a hot Sunday summer night in July. No one slept. A police car rolled up silently to the scene of the accident. They had been in the neighborhood on a call.
            It was one block over.
            It had been a hit and run.
            A young girl was walking with her mother.
            Twelve year old Carrie Walker was dead. Everyone knew her. Her father had sold most of them their houses. Her mother was head of the PTA.
            It was a hot night in July. But there was a strange chill. The small crowd shuffled about.
            They felt the Walker’s loss.
            They understood the Kelly’s anger.
            Someone should be with the Walkers.
            Mr. Martin offered his towing service.
            It was silent and still. The police radio split the heavy night air. Twenty heads strained to hear. The accidents were related. An eye witness had seen a car traveling at high speed, its right front fender crumpled.
            The car was a convertible.
            It was dark green.
            The license plate number was familiar.
            The words struck like a hammer blow. The same thought was on everyone’s mind. Neighbors looked at one another questioning, asking, puzzled; in disbelief.
            “Young John Martin has a convertible.”
            “Didn’t he just paint it dark green?”
            “There’s dark green paint on Kelly’s car.”
            Mike and Louise Martin shrank from the crowd and slipped back to their house. Tom Kelly looked at his wife. Alice Johnson mumbled something about teenagers. Bob Thompson gathered up his children. Bill Hanks sighed, and Sam Parker took his wife’s hand in his.
            No one spoke.
            No one looked at the Kelly’s.
            No one looked at each other.
            The small suburban community was close. The people worked, played and prayed together. They knew and took care of each other. They had grown up together. In a neighborhood where a single fence stretched for blocks and the only difference was the color of the houses, it only seemed natural.
            Each house was the same; each house different.
            Each occupant was an individual, each individual a neighbor; each neighbor a friend.
            It was a Sunday night, the kind of night when doors were closed, locks were turned; windows shut and shades drawn.
            Outside, streetlights called to mosquitoes.
            Inside, mothers called to children; lovers called to each other.
            It was 11:15 on a hot summer night in July. It was bed time but no one slept.



                                                                                        Houston, Texas
                                                                                        July, 1992    

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Conversation

Conversation
BJ Neblett
© 2009
            “Why did you come here?”
            “I don’t know…”
            “Why?”
            “I thought we could talk.”
            “Do I look like I want to talk?”
            “I don’t know. You know I could never read your expressions. Your eyes, they’re…”
            “Cold… empty?
            “No! No, not cold, just… what’s that word you use?”
            “Enigmatic?”
            “Yes, enigmatic, confusing.”
            “We were together for seven years and you still don’t know me.”
            “Yes, I do…”
            “You don’t.”
            “I want to…”
            “A little late for that, don’t you think?”
            “You always said it’s never too late.”
            “I was wrong.”
            “No.”
            “Time can…”
            “What, time can what?”
            “Nothing…”
            “It’s only been six years. That’s not too long a time… is it?”
            “Not if you are building the pyramids!”
            “I hate it when you do that.”
            “Do what?”
            “When you are sarcastic… I just meant it hasn’t seemed like six years.”
            “You weren’t the one in prison.”
            “That’s not fair…”
            “What isn’t?”
            “In a way I was in prison. I didn’t know what had happened… or why. I didn’t know what I should do… what you wanted me to do.”
            “So you did nothing… nothing! No letters, not even a lousy post card. You wouldn’t even let me call.”
            “I was confused… hurt… felt betrayed…”
            “I needed you.”
            “I wrote…”
            “Yeah, for what, the first couple of months, till you found out I would be gone for a while. Then nothing…”
            “I sent you a card when your mother passed away… I didn’t know what else I could do for you… I liked her.”
            “She liked you, too. If you’d read my last letter you’d have known what to do. It was a birthday card.”
            “It was returned. I never received it.”
            “Because you moved… with no forwarding address!”
            “I had to! I couldn’t stay there. Not by myself, not alone… I couldn’t.”
            “So you sold the cars, my equipment. What else… you sold it all and took off. No letters, no forwarding address, nothing…just gone.”
            “It wasn’t like that… I kept your collection for you…”
            “Why are you here?”
            “Your sister told me you’d been released.”
            “Why are you here?”
            “I thought we could talk…”
            “Why are you here?”
            “I don’t know…”
            “You should have written.”
            “I know. I’m… I’m… Alisha says hell-o.”
            “How is she?”
            “Good. She misses you. She’s good. She finished school, has a good job as a paralegal. She’s dating one of the attorneys. He’s a nice guy… You really cared for her. You were a good father to Alisha, the father she never had.”
            “She’s a good kid.”
            “It was hard for her, really hard. She blamed me. We didn’t speak for a long time. When we did it was just to argue… usually about something stupid.”
            “I’m sorry. The whole thing was stupid.”
            “What happened to us? What went wrong…was it me?”
            “Kinda’ late to worry about that now don’t you think?
            “Is it?”
            “How the hell do I know? I don’t know anything anymore. Damn it, I didn’t even know myself! How was I suppose to know what was going to happen… I didn’t know what I was doing. I was sick… I tried to tell you that… in my letters.”
            “I couldn’t listen then…”
            “Couldn’t or wouldn’t?”
            “I don’t know. Tell me now…please.”
            “Damn, you really didn’t know, did you… you don’t understand… well I didn’t understand either. I mean we planned on getting married. What would have happened if we had?”
            “I don’t know. I always believed marriage… love… love was forever. Tim destroyed that fantasy.”
            “I’m not Tim… it’s no fantasy…”
            “Then why? Why did it happen…why did you let it happen?”
            “I didn’t!”
            “You did! You did…”
            “I swear I had no idea! I was sick. I didn’t know I was sick. Hell, what would you have done if I had cancer…if I had to go away for six years for treatment?”
            “That’s different…”
            “No! It isn’t! That’s what I tried to tell you, tried to make you see. But you wouldn’t listen. You weren’t there.”
            “I’m here now…”
            “You’re still smoking.”
            “No…smoking again. I quit. Almost four years. I started again last Thursday.”
            “The day I was released...”
            “I’m here now…listening…”
            “All of those years. All those lousy freakin’ years! I had no idea… ”
            “You couldn’t have known…”
            “Fifty three years! That’s how long my life was run, taken over, half a freakin’ century!”
            “That must have been so weird…I can’t imagine.”
            “The final piece of the puzzle fell into place when I learned my career was keeping it all in check. It satisfied a need… like some junkie.”
            “So when you left your last job you lost your control.”
            “Take away the control and things begin to fall apart…quickly.”
            “I’m so, so sorry…”
            “It was my decision, after thirty years I was worn out… tired. I was happy… content with the life you and I had made. Or at least, that’s what I believed.”
            “You had no way of knowing…”
            “Knowing that I would destroy everything I cared about…destroy my life…”
            “You mean our life…our relationship. But we’re still here…”
            “Things change… people change… life changes.”
            “Only if you let it…”
            “No! I’m not the same person I was… the person you once knew.”
`           “I didn’t know…”
“I needed you!”
            “And I didn’t understand…”
            “You weren’t there for me!”
            “I didn’t know what to do…what to say. I thought you’d abandoned me, left me…that you didn’t want me anymore… you weren’t there for me, either!”
            “Why did you come here?”
            “I don’t know…”


                                                                                                Seattle, WA
                                                                                                July, 2009